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Uniquely (another positive term than to be called weird) Me.

Lebih baik sedikit teman, tapi nggak punya musuh. Daripada banyak teman, tapi banyak musuh.
-Pacar.

Entah karena menghiburku yang tidak bisa bergaul ini,
atau, memang karena hal itu benar.

tapi buat aku pribadi (dan setelah tes kepribadian di salah satu situs), ternyata aku memang lebih nyaman berada di antara orang-orang yang aku kenal, dibandingkan di antara orang-orang asing yang belum aku kenal (dan harus berkenalan dengan mereka). Mungkin aku akan menjadi sangat sangat pendiam dan aneh kalo baru kenal, apalagi kalo moodnya lagi nggak jelas waktu kenalan. Aku hanya butuh sedikit waktu lebih lama supaya bisa akrab, but i'm loyal with my friends. That's what they said.

Ah maafkan saya yang tidak bisa bergaul ini.


Ah, situs sihalan. Aku merasa seperti ditelanjangi setelah mengikuti tes tersebut, hahahaha. Bagi yang mau nyoba, ke sini aja. Seru!

Four words for me: Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, Perceiving.
Tapi Sanguinis.

Ah, dasar nggak jelas.
Manusia, oh manusia.


Ney.
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Thank You


as long as I could remember,
we're bestfriend.

and still, even now.

thanks for your supports
thanks for your jokes
thanks for the shoulders
thanks for the smiles
thanks for listening in me
thanks for trusting in me when none can't
thanks for the lessons, values, and principles you've shared with me

thanks for being my universe.

i've never felt enough reading your pages, then don't close the book yet.

Lead me to your door.
-The Long & Winding Road, The Beatles-



Ney.

P.s: just curious what've you thought about me this time... :)
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You're Such a Hypocrite


he said i was the competitive one,
he said i was the avengeful one,
he said i was the guilty one.

he looks at me like i'm an idiot and stubborn,
he looks at me like i'm worthless and useless,
he looks at me like i'm a criminal and mean.

he acts like an angel to everyone
he says and sounds "right" to everyone, and he can't be wrong
he can blame me (and everyone else) for mistake(S) i've never made

he can "blind" people by the words of his slicky little tongue
he can make you "wrong" though you were absolutely right
he absolutely has TWO FACES (or maybe more)

so i think...

maybe, just maybe... i am the avengeful one.
maybe, just maybe... i am guilty.
maybe, just maybe...i am the evil one.


but the real problem here is, why i feel so abnormal here is, because...

they said, "it's wrong to be right among the wrongs."
and don't you even dare to tell me it's not a matter of right or wrong, cause IT IS!



and here's what i think:

You're such a HYPOCRITE. People may change. But not you. You just CAN'T.


that's why your victims "friends", including me (i'm even not your friend), HATE YOU. JERK.


Ney

P.s: you won't believe if i tell you who is he.

pic from here.
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God's Joke

Today i feel surprise, another reader has read my blog. Surprisingly, dia bukan berasal dari negara berbahasa Indonesia tapi dia mengerti, i guess i have to say thanks to google translate. As i quote from her, here's what she thinks of me..

You seem to want to positive everytime, whatever happens in life and that's also my "faith" at this time :). It makes us be more brave, isn't it? ^^ You seem to be mature even u've got a child's heart, I really love this ^^v thanks to share your thoughts like that. I think I admire you :D.


Woohooo! New admirer, what a day!

As i reply to her, aku bahkan nggak sadar kalo blogku ini bisa memberikan pembacanya such a positiveness, tapi jika memang iya, waow! Terima kasih banyak, aku sangat menghargainya. Senang bisa menginspirasi.

Ironisnya, justru aku yang tidak bisa melihat si positiveness itu, haha.

Dalam message-nya, dia bilang dia takut menulis, nggak percaya diri dengan tulisannya sendiri. Kenapa harus takut?

Anyway, aku belajar menulis pertama kali untuk diriku sendiri di dalam buku diary yang pertama kali dibelikan mama. Buku diary kedua masih dibelikan mama, tapi dengan pilihanku sendiri (yang ada kuncinya, karena mamaku suka baca! Haha!), dan kuncinya ku sembunyiin di balik poster boyband Westlife di kamarku dulu. (Westlife kept my secret! :P) Mamaku yang menyuruhku belajar menulis, dia bilang menulis itu melatih otak. (Which i didn't know what it meant...)

Sekarang, still I write for my self. It's my digital diary. Walaupun tentu saja, hal-hal yang ku tulis lama-lama ku sensor juga akhirnya, mengingat aku nggak bisa tau siapa aja yang mengakses blogku, nggak seperti diary-ku dulu. Jadi intinya sih, jangan takut menulis. This is me. This is my page. I'll write everything i want, if you don't like it, feel free to close the tab/ window. Just like I always said.

Thank you for starting to love Indonesia. Terima kasih. :)


Next topic.

Karena aku penasaran (plus lupa) apa aja yang udah ku tulis di blog jadi-jadian ku ini, akhirnya aku memutuskan untuk membaca ulang isi blogku sendiri. Hahaha, bener kan, ternyata aneh berat. Heran aja masih ada yang mau baca. :P But, thanks anyway.

Akhirnya sampailah pada post ini. Rasanya lucu jadinya, bahkan dulu pun aku sudah merasa sayang sama sahabatku sendiri. Bahkan udah ada.... apa ya namanya? Istilah cheesy-nya sih, "kontak batin" sama dia, hihihi. Rasanya lucu kalo inget, dulu kita itu jarang berkomunikasi karena kita kuliah berjauh-jauhan, lagian kita sama-sama punya kehidupan masing-masing waktu itu.

Jarang berkomunikasi itu artinya memang benar-benar jarang. Bahkan kayaknya, kita berkomunikasi hanya via sms, telepon, facebook yang frekuensinya cuma occasionally. Kalo lebaran, atau tahun baru aja. Basi banget. Cuma nanya, "kapan pulang? Kangen." Tapi hari itu beda. Aku lagi down banget waktu itu, dan tiba-tiba hpku bergetar dengan tulisan "Olan Rangers is calling" di layarnya. "Tumben," pikirku. Selanjutnya, baca sendiri deh. Hahahaha. Judul post-nya aja I Felt Loved. Tapi kan waktu itu aku merasa dicintai oleh sahabatku sendiri. :D

Another God's joke.


Ney.
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[heart] Woody

Now Woody, he's been my pal for as long as I can remember. He's brave, like a cowboy should be. And kind, and smart. But the thing that makes Woody special, is he'll never give up on you... ever. He'll be there for you, no matter what.

- Andy, Toy Story 3



i wanna be like Woody.

Brave,
Kind,
Smart,
Never give up.

*sigh*


Ney
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One of a Kind


He said:

Kamu tuh kalo disemangatin malah ngeyel, huuu..

But still, he never give up on me.
Never give up pulling me out to the surface.

Makasih yaa, my pink marshmellow...


You're One of a Kind.

Ney.


*pic from ~darkmeleanne
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Posting Kangen

O' well, seems like years since the last post, padahal belum juga sebulan kayaknya. Maaf jadi agak tersendat gini mo blogging di rumah, entah modem error, wifi routernya error, ip address yang clash, sampe karena telat bayar. But hey, the good side of it is i learned some IT problems. YEA!

Some updates of my life:
  • YES i'm in Jakarta right now. And don't know when to come back to Bandung.
  • We had first, second, third (and so on) fight, like the other normal couples. And it made us feel stronger (at least that's what i feel)
  • My sacred 'T' is still not going anywhere, thanks to speedy.
  • Tomorrow is a big day, cause i've got my first "teeth surgery".
  • My family still abnormal and absurd nowadays. Insane, to be exactly.
  • Rangers has come back.
  • And, i love him more than ever before.

Intinya di poin terakhir sebenernya. You know, it feels really great when you have a place to go, place to lay onto, place to rest and have a peaceful life together, share all your problems. Share your life.

Sebenernya, menurutku itu intinya, when you have an intimate relationship with someone. Kayak apa yang dibilang Nagita Slavina sama Afghan, "yang ku tahu cinta itu indah." Even, ketika berantem. Ah indahnya saat-saat berbaikan itu, jadi makin manja. Hihihihi.

Makanya sekarang aku merasa bersyukur sekarang, apalagi mengingat track record-ku yang kurang baik in a relationship, sekarang tuh nyamaaan banget. Kata orang, perempuan itu lebih baik baik dicintai daripada mencintai. And i feel so lucky could feel both of them, to love and to be loved.

Bahkan dulu pun aku udah bersyukur punya dia sebagai sahabat yang care, yang penyayang. Eh malah sekarang jadi pacar. Alhamdulillah. I've never felt greater than this.

Hei, kita udah mau 3 bulan, yihiiy! Semoga aku tambah dewasa, tambah sabar, dan kurang cueknya. Amiiinn.

Sebagai penutup, i show you this photo...

Aku inget banget, foto ini diambil waktu kita masih jadi sahabat (sekarang pun masih), aku bilang sama salah satu sahabatku yang lain, "Co, tolong fotoin kita dong!" Trus dia akhirnya ngefotoin kita berdua, dan kemudian bilang, "wah parah! Kayak pacaran aja lo berdua." FYI, waktu foto itu emang aku entah kenapa ngerasa sayang banget sama dia (yang ku pikir hanya sebatas kapasitas seorang sahabat), dan ternyata auranya terpancar. :)

So, here it is...




Ney.

P.s: i really miss you recently. But hey, i've never felt not-so-missing you either, so... Well, i think i just get used to it.
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Still Tick-ing.

siapa tak kenal konsep waktu?
istilah paling relatif yang pernah ada. *at least that's what i think*

tahun depan, tahun ini, minggu depan, minggu ini, bulan depan, bulan ini, siang, malam, besok, kemarin, hari ini.

Relatif? Ya, tentu saja.
Menurut mereka tak ada yang pasti, kecuali Tuhan, dan kepastian itu sendiri.

Semuanya relatif.

Menurutku, Jakarta-Bandung jauh, karena aku sedang malas menaiki mobil sempit, berdesak-desakkan, menekuk kaki selama berjam-jam. Tapi tidak menurut orang lain.

Menurutku, perjalanan 6 jam Jepara-Karimun dengan kapal ferry itu lebih dekat daripada Jakarta-Bandung yang hanya 2.5 jam itu, karena tak sabar melihat pantai.

Menurutku, perjalanan berangkat ke Jogja dari Bandung waktu itu lebih sebentar dibandingkan perjalanan pulangnya, karena sebagian hatiku yang masih tertinggal di sana.

Dan, menurutku. Waktu berjalan sangat sangat cepat belakangan ini. And i don't know why, or i don't want to know why? (Atau saya yang berjalan terlalu lamban? Entahlah.)

Dan saya masih waras, tentu saja. *at least that's what i think*


the only easy day was yesterday.
-quoteword

Dear God, in Your majesty, You create differences. In my arrogance, I question Your wisdom. In Your mistery, You create temptation. In my inferiority, You make me more than I am. So here I am, surrender me in the agony of Your love, surrender me in the irony of Your law. Lead me to the joy of love redivined, teach me how to love You more.
-cin(t)a

quote copas dari twitter dan status facebooknya ricco, and pic from ~natdatnl


Ney.
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Nyampah Berat

All I need is a chance!
-Chicken Little

No, i don't need a chance. I need motivation.



i found this when i'm googling for some 'motivations' (silly isn't it? i know)

Positive-intrinsic? Yayaya, i see.
Being theoristic is always easy.


Ney.
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Forgive Me for being Cheesy..

no further explanations. you all know what it means. :)

Ney.
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Another Idea for Birthday

Hai, aku lagi nih. Buat readers yang lagi merasa, "wah sebentar lagi si X ulang tahun, tapi bokek berat nih!" Aku punya ide lain yang bagus dan murah untuk dipraktekan.

Sedikit lebih rumit daripada kado buat papaku, tapi sama aja intinya. Yang paling dibutuhkan sebenernya cuma kreativitas. Karena, hari ini kita akan membuat scrapbook digital. Yaaay!

Jadi, kemaren ceritanya, aku dapet pesenan dari temen untuk bikin desain kartu buat ulang tahun papanya. Awalnya sih cuma mau dibikin kartu biasa, tapi mendadak dapet ilham untuk dibikin ala scrapbook. Dan emang dasar aku lagi suka banget bikin aslinya, bikin yang digital jadi tambah asik.

Foto hasilnya, bisa dilihat di sebelah. (klik di gambar untuk memperbesar)

Bahan-bahan yang dibutuhkan:
  • - Foto-foto lama (soft/hard copy) - kalo yang hard copy di-scan dulu ya..
  • - Internet - untuk nyari background dan segala pernak-pernik yang lucu-lucu.
  • - Photoshop - untuk nge-crop atau ngegabungin foto.
  • - Customized font - bisa di-download dari internet, googling aja ya..
  • - Quotes atau puisi favorit - bisa googling juga.
Keahlian yang dibutuhkan: Kesabaran.

Keuntungan scrapbook digital:
  • - Nggak butuh kertas karena bisa di-upload di facebook, dan langsung di-tag ke orangnya.
  • - Menghemat penggunaan kertas jugaaa! (GO GREEN! Yihaaa!)
  • - Kalopun butuh, paling bayar buat nge-print aja sih, dan umumnya cuma satu lembar.
  • - Semua datanya bisa dimanipulasi, nggak kayak scrapbook beneran yang harus kita atur-atur supaya muat.
Kekurangan scrapbook digital: Siap-siap mata pegel hasil terlalu lama liat monitor.

Bagi temen-temen yang mau minta aku bikinin juga boleh, mumpung nggak ada kerjaan hihihi. Just text me, or via ym, facebook, plurk, twitter. Reach me anywhere, deh. Ya, tapi kasih tau juga tujuannya buat apa, kalian maunya dibikin seperti apa.


Ney.
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Drowned

Hi.. Yea i know, i always change my blog's layout and header blog. Nyebelin emang kalo kita bikin sesuatu, tapi rasanya selalu ada yang kurang. Entah ini, entah itu.

Akhirnya jadi juga blog ini dengan susah payah, hasil merem dikit (karena kalo diperhatiin pasti slalu ada kurangnya), dan pelampiasan pusing yang mendera seharian ini. Jadi maaf yaa, kalo hari ini aku agak mengalienasi diri. Fyuh.

But still i'm happy with the banner, walaupun jadinya malah agak absurd. But hope it still represents what does my blog talk about. Love, thought, music, and what i love the most, traveling. Yayaya, aku juga nggak tau juga sih ada payung di situ artinya apa, tapi payungnya lucu bangett!

Orang-orang yang baca blog ini pasti berpikir, "dasar orang nggak punya kerjaan!" Hahaa, that's me! Orang yang sebenarnya punya kerjaan, tapi berasa nggak punya kerjaan, jadi nyari-nyari kerjaan lain yang nggak penting. Ribet emang.

Tapi ya gitu deh, namanya juga stres. Jadi maklum aja kalo kelakuannya macem-macem.

You have to believe in your natural super power!
-Bolt


Ayo semangat, Ney. Kamu pasti bisa.
Kamu harus bisa.
Memaksa diri berenang ke permukaan.

Tapi aku sepertinya belum mau muncul di permukaan.
Terlalu dalam tenggelam.
Terlalu lama hilang arah.

*Sigh*




Ney.

(pict via ~lucyy92)
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Absurdity

Aaaaand yes, you're right. I can't sleep and it's almost 2.00 am in the morning. And i just... writing this crap, doing nothing, just spitting out my mind, ah you named it.

These are few things what i want, so damn bad, right now.

dragon riding (toothless, kalo bisa.)


magic-carpet ride


so, i can do this in the end...

and grow old with someone i love...

please, someone told me like Aladdin told to Genie...

Aladdin: Genie, I wish for your freedom.
Genie: One bona fide prince pedigree coming up. I - what?
Aladdin: Genie, you're FREE!



i know i'm so absurd these days, forgive me.

Ney.
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Happy Birthday, Papacit.

i've just realized, that love is the best gift you can give to someone else.
cause it's free, effective, and pretty easy to do.

11th of May was my father's birthday. Before the day arrived, i was confused by the thought of "what do i want to give to him?". Nanya mama sama sekali nggak membantu, karena kayaknya dia juga nggak berencana ngasih kado apapun.

  • Baju? Doi tipikal picky dalam urusan warna baju. Sesuai moodnya dia deh, kalo nggak sesuai ya nggak akan dipake tuh baju.
  • Dompet? Doi tipikal 'males-beradaptasi-sama-hal-baru' yang artinya, kalo nggak dompetnya yang lama sampe jebol dulu, dia nggak mungkin mau ganti dompet baru.
  • Sepatu? Kere bok, eike!
  • Ikat pinggang? (baca poin dompet)
  • Jam tangan? Lebih kere lagi, bok! Yuk mari..

Apa lagi sih keperluan cowok tuh? Apalagi papaku tipe yang 'biasa-aja' kalo dikasih kado-kado begituan, yang ada sakit hati sendiri kalo nggak dipake, heu..

So, finally, i made this for him.






he's the strongest man i've ever known, tapi mamaku bilang, "dek papa bilang: Na, ternyata dek Neysa sayang banget ya sama aku," dengan mata yang berkaca-kaca.

terbukti efektif kan? bahan-bahan yang dibutuhkan cukup mudah. Photoshop, kreativitas, dan internet.

semoga menginspirasi.


Ney
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Buffer2010

am not gonna say a lot, just let the pics talk.

the best bassist (Barry Likumahuwa), and the best vocalist (Matthew Sawyers) ever


what an expression!

5 from 6 personnels of BLP (plus Jonas Wang in the back, if you could see)

that's what i called 'menghayati' hahaha.. And Dennis definitely fit in the terminology of 'cute', woohoo!

awawawaww

not big fan of Rayi, but this one is not-bad

love the spotlight, actually. haha!

these guys are who the ABEGEs screamed for all night long.

actually, i'm a big fan of the guy in the back, named Aska, the guitarist.

this is what i called SUPERB!

the one and only, Sandhy Sondoro.

my fave one is End of The Rainbow, beuh!

All picts' captured by me.


saatnya narsis (dikit), haha!



Ney.

p.s: I LOVE YOU with capital letter, and this one is for you. :)
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Anna (Go to Him)

Aku belum pernah denger lagu ini sebelumnya, padahal ngakunya sih fansnya The Beatles. Judulnya Anna (Go to Him).

Pertama kali denger lagu ini pas si pacar main ke Bandung dengan bawa dvd yang isinya foto-foto kita di Jogja (dari Alm. si Merah, hiks!) yang ternyata dimasukkin juga sama dia song book-nya The Beatles, komplit! Waah aku senang sekali. Maklum, kita berdua sama-sama menggilai cowok-cowok berpotongan bob itu.

Pertama kali denger lagu itu, aku sedih banget. Dan terkejut juga sebenernya. Apalagi waktu itu yang nyanyiin si pacar pake gitar. (Tambah mewek dah!) Gila, di zaman itu, jenius banget liriknya. Plus, dalem juga buat si pacar. Katanya sih, lagu itu udah sering dia nyanyiin waktu SMA gara-gara nggak kesampaian ngomong langsung sama orangnya. :P

Here it is...

Anna, you come and ask me girl
To set you free, girl
You say he loves you more than me

So I will set you free
Go with him, go with him

Anna, girl, before you go now
I want you to know now
That I still love you so
But if he loves you more, go with him

All of my life I've been searching for a girl
To love me like I love you oh, now
But every girl I've ever had breaks my heart

And leaves me sad, what am I
What am I suppose to do oh, oh, oh .....
Anna, just one more thing, girl
You give back your ring to me
And I will set you free, go with him

All of my life I've been searching for a girl
To love me like I love you
Cause let me tell you now
But every girl I've ever had breaks my heart

And leaves me sad, what am I
What am I suppose to do oh, oh, oh .....
Anna, just one more thing, girl
You give back your ring to me
And I will set you free,
Go with him, go with him
You can go with him, girl, go with him



Dan, ternyata oh ternyata, lagu ini bukanlah lagu asli karya The Beatles, tapi ditulis dan sempat dinyanyikan oleh Arthur Alexander. Karena John Lennon suka banget sama lagu ini, akhirnya diputuskan untuk dimasukkan ke dalam album Please, Please Me. Begitulah kira-kira. Oiya, judulnya emang Anna (Go to Him), bukan Anna (Go with Him) walaupun dinyanyikan dengan 'with'.

Yang sebenernya ganggu dari lagu ini, sebenernya adalah liriknya yang ini, "You give back your ring to me, and I will set you free, go with him." Why did you want her to give back your ring? Buat apa? Toh nggak akan dipake juga kan? Sebenernya bisa sih kalo mo dijual lagi, hemhem..

But anyway, i'm touched by the song, kesian kalo ada cowok kayak gitu. Kecuali lirik bagian itu.


Ney.

P.s: no, i don't wanna go with him or anyone else. I don't wanna go anywhere, i just wanna sit here with you listening to your guitar play. May i? :)
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