Before I Fall in Love

Before I Fall in Love

Seorang abiku pernah menasihatiku, zaman-zaman dia masih di Turki dulu dan belum sesibuk sekarang, zaman-zaman di Turki dulu waktu dia masih bisa online 24 jam dengan provider Turkinya (nggak kayak provider Indonesia yang mahal luar biasa). Seperti biasa, entah kenapa, semua kritik-kritik, nasihat-nasihat, saran-saran, komen-komen dari dia bisa langsung ku terima. And i'm usually not easy being criticized. Ah, memang he's the man.

Jadi, kangen curhat-curhatan sama dia, webcam-webcam-an ngeliat muka komiknya, hahahaha. Padahal kalo dipikir-pikir, dulu sama sekarang jaraknya jauh lebih deket sekarang, malah sekarang sekota, padahal dulu beda benua. Tapi, yaah begitulah. Terlalu banyak faktor yang bikin kita 'jauh' bahkan dari arti jarak yang sebenarnya.

Intinya, banyak yang salah mengartikan kita.
Korban dari manusia-manusia yang terlalu menggilai label.

Biarlah dia menganggap aku sombong, udah menemukan kebahagiaan yang lain, lupa sama dia.

But the truth is, i don't want to ruin his life.


Padahal, aku cuma pengen ngobrol sama abiku yang nggak pernah ku punya. Sosok yang bijaksana yang bikin aku ingat Allah, bikin aku sadar hal-hal kecil yang nggak pernah aku syukuri sebelumnya, dan yang paling penting menyadarkan aku how beautiful life i have right now.

Abiku sekaligus guruku, my literally saviour. Yea, he's literally a teacher, and i think it's his nature gift. :) *abicim, i'm sure that you'll be a freaking good teacher, cause you're rock! Bon courage! XD

Dan mendadak aku ingat dia gara-gara aku lagi mengalami lagi hal-hal yang pernah aku curhatin ke dia, dan jadi ingat nasihatnya dia. Nasihat dalam bentuk lagu, untuk nggak mengulangi kesalahan besar yang pernah aku perbuat, judulnya...

"Before I Fall in Love by Coco Lee"
(langsung puter di Winamp, hihih)

My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
Cause my hearts been fooled before
Am I just seeing what I want to see
or is it true could you really be

Someone to have and hold
with all my heart and soul
I need to know before I fall in love
someone who'll stay around
through all my up's and down's
Please tell me now before I fall in love

I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
but I wanna take a chance
Oh, please give me a reason to believe
say you're the one
that you'll always be

Someone to have and hold
with all my heart and soul
I need to know before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
through all my up's and down's
Please tell me now before I fall in love
It's been so hard for me
to give my heart away
but I'd give my everything

Someone to have and hold
with all my heart and soul
I need to know before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
through all my up's and down's
Please tell me now before I fall in love
Before I fall in love

* Iya abi, THIS TIME i really need to know, before i fall, in love. And one more thing from your quote that i remember..

"Ney, kamu bisa kok dapet jauh jauh yang lebih baik dari sekarang, Ney. Percayalah. Ney, abi nggak bisa liat kamu sakit lagi kayak gini lagi, Ney. Kamu menyenangkan, baik banget, sayang banget kalo cuma akhirnya cuma disakitin begini. Jadi, saran abi, Ney, setelah yang ini, nggak usah cari pacar lagi, Ney. Carilah calon suami."

Yes, abi. I will.

çok teşekkür ederim,

Ney.


(Abi = Panggilan "mas" dalam bahasa Turki. And abi, you know who you are. Thanks for those moments.)