A Story From Lil Ellie

A Story From Lil Ellie

"this lil ellie learn the fact that she (probably) could climb some walls,
but some others (probably) couldn't."

Suatu hari, seorang teman mengajakku mengikuti kegiatan ini.

I love this stuff, really do. If you mention traveling alone in a part of world we never know, making new friends, having fun with strangers you don't even know their language, getaway vacation? They're all in.

It's all dramatic, when i'm definitely could have steps into it, i'm sure i could fly!
but...

let's say i don't have wings. And, gravity drag me down, to the reality.

Face it. I couldn't fly.

And so here i am, down here, watching all my friends fly. Fly up so high.
Because, they have what i don't have.

Did i feel down?
Nggaklaaah... (baca: aku sanguinis)

Noooo, of course i felt it.
Gimana sih rasanya "semua-bisa-aku-hadapi", but you don't?! Dari 1-10 persyaratan, kamu bisa memenuhi 2-10, tapi tidak untuk yang nomer 1. And you definitely can't change that.

Mentok.

Ini yang ku sebut, LIMITATION(S) *with capital S*


next questions:

Apa aku menyesal? Apa aku lantas menyalahkan keadaan?

FIRST, for the second question, i did. Tapi tidak, aku tidak pernah menyesal. Aku tak pernah menyesali keputusanku untuk mundur, tak pernah sekalipun ku sesali keputusan itu, and surprisingly, aku nggak lagi menyalahkan keadaan.

and guess what? Then my life is so damn easier than ever, just simply to let it go.

This is me, live with all my weaknesses, with all my imperfections. And i never regret (hopefully). Take me or leave me.

As simple as that.

Ney.


p.s: Aku nggak akan iri hati kok (insyaAllah), sedih sih, tapi aku bukan monyet yang menarik-narik teman-temannya yang ingin mendapatkan kelapa di atas pohon. Semangat ya, teman-teman! Aku mendukungmu dari bawah sini.. *big grin*

InsyaAllah, aku akan menemukan jalan lain, yang tidak melibatkan 'terbang' dan 'sayap' tentunya, mungkin jalan darat.. ;)