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miff you, dear.


dia bilang, dia paling suka Real Madrid.

dia bilang, dia paling suka jadi kiper di tim sepak bola sekolahnya.

dia masih ngemut jempol waktu tidur
(and he'll get angry if he knew i told you this, haha)

he's my cousin. i called him dek Palis, like he said his name was when he was younger.

you won't know how 'strong' he is, until you 'know', or 'feel' him.
and being strong is never easy.

the most independent and 'grown-up' kiddo i've ever met,
but never leave his childish side, and that's why i love you, dek.

i've learned so much from you, dek.

udah nyampe Solo dek? Baik-baik ya, aku tau kamu pasti nggak nakal di sana,
jadi aku nggak akan bilang "Jangan nakal ya."

Missed every inch of you already.


Ney


p.s: You can see my mom in the first picture, wore purple outfit, dalam gaya 'nggak-sengaja-kefoto' qiqiqiqqiq

p.s.s: Foto ini diambil di bandara sesaat sebelum doi dan si mamanya take-off.
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A Story From Lil Ellie

"this lil ellie learn the fact that she (probably) could climb some walls,
but some others (probably) couldn't."




Suatu hari, seorang teman mengajakku mengikuti kegiatan ini.

I love this stuff, really do. If you mention traveling alone in a part of world we never know, making new friends, having fun with strangers you don't even know their language, getaway vacation? They're all in.

It's all dramatic, when i'm definitely could have steps into it, i'm sure i could fly!

but...


let's say i don't have wings. And, gravity drag me down, to the reality.

Face it. I couldn't fly.

And so here i am, down here, watching all my friends fly. Fly up so high.
Because, they have what i don't have.


Did i feel down?
Nggaklaaah...
(baca: aku sanguinis)


Noooo, of course i felt it.
Gimana sih rasanya "semua-bisa-aku-hadapi", but you don't?!
Dari 1-10 persyaratan, kamu bisa memenuhi 2-10, tapi tidak untuk yang nomer 1. And you definitely can't change that.

Mentok.


Ini yang ku sebut, LIMITATION(S) *with capital S*


next questions:

Apa aku menyesal? Apa aku lantas menyalahkan keadaan?

FIRST, for the second question, i did. Tapi tidak, aku tidak pernah menyesal. Aku tak pernah menyesali keputusanku untuk mundur, tak pernah sekalipun ku sesali keputusan itu, and surprisingly, aku nggak lagi menyalahkan keadaan.

and guess what? Then my life is so damn easier than ever, just simply to let it go.

This is me, live with all my weaknesses, with all my imperfections.
And i never regret (hopefully). Take me or leave me.

As simple as that.


Ney.



p.s: Aku nggak akan iri hati kok (insyaAllah), sedih sih, tapi aku bukan monyet yang menarik-narik teman-temannya yang ingin mendapatkan kelapa di atas pohon. Semangat ya, teman-teman! Aku mendukungmu dari bawah sini.. *big grin*

InsyaAllah, aku akan menemukan jalan lain, yang tidak melibatkan 'terbang' dan 'sayap' tentunya, mungkin jalan darat.. ;)
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are you a massochist, or what?

Happy New Year 2010!

Sebenernya pengen ngucapin in a proper way, seperti nulis post pertama di tahun 2010 yang isinya resolusi-resolusi, harapan-harapan, dan blablabla, tapi banyak alasannya untuk tidak. Pertama, nggak ada ide yang sedikit 'original', kedua, ada hal lain yang lebih menarik untuk ku tulis daripada sekedar resolusi yang harusnya buat aku sendiri juga sih.

Tapi tenang aja, resolusi-resolusi 2010-ku ada di samping kiri. (Kayak ada yang mo ngeliat juga hahaha) Plus one, find a love that i need, instead of i want. ;p

Oke, cukup.


Jadi ceritanya gini, nggak tau gimana awalnya, terjadilah percakapan antara aku dan salah satu sahabat terbaikku di wall facebook.

RS (one of my bestfriends):
kalau "superman" udah tau dia bakal lemah dihadapan "kryptonite".. trus buat apa dia ngedeketin sesuatu yang udah tau pasti itu akan nyakitin dia?

then i answered...
hemm, it's probably the same question if you ask me,
why love if losing hurts so much?
or why walk if falling hurts so much?


there are 2 possible options of answer..
1. he is "no pain, no gain" kind of person, or

2. simply that stupid superman is a massochist

or, maybe... just maybe...

3. this 'super-man' both enjoy the pain, because he knows that there is always a rainbow after the rain.


i think i choose the last one. Which one is yours? Because, after all, i believe that there's someone out there, for me, and for everyone else. Just like Buble said in his new song, haven't met you yet.

wherever you are, whenever it's right. i just haven't met you yet. :)
(Michael Buble)


Ney.

p.s: this thing reminds me one of (alm) Meggy Z's song, "percuma saja berlayar, kalau kau takut gelombang". So damn true!
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